How I Conquer Anxiety

I know I am not alone in my dances with anxiety. My Scary Mommy post was scary for me to post to the world because it talked openly about something I’ve found hard to talk about: anxiety.

But the feedback has been phenomenal. The stories others have shared has been comforting. As I found more and more people raising their hands and saying me too, I felt less scared to talk about it. Continue reading

Can I Still Raise My Kids if I Can’t Sing them Lullabies?

The first time it happened, my oldest was four months old. I sang to him the one nursery rhyme I could recall by memory: Itsy Bitsy Spider.

Because that’s what moms do. I’ve read it in books, seen it on TV,  and listened to more seasoned moms reflect on singing their now grown babies to sleep. I’m now a mom and this is what I should do. Continue reading

Why Am I Doing This: How I Keep Going through Self-doubt

Some weeks, I really put off opening my computer to work on the blog. When I do get the nerve to open my computer, I might mess around Facebook or check the weather before I turn to writing. Posting day is no doubt the hardest (I’ve already checked Facebook 3 times and know that there’s a 15% chance of isolated showers around 5pm today).

At the heart of that procrastination is the most backwards reasoning in the world: If I don’t try, then I can’t fail.

But I know better. Continue reading

Drying the Worry: Finally Hitting a Milestone Early

With the exception of birth, my oldest child had never been early for a milestone. Some caused concern, even with his doctors. Others seemed small or inconsequential and were easy to brush off. But it was the combination of them all together that seemed big.

With each milestone he achieved later than other kids his age, I couldn’t help but think back to his early birth. I couldn’t help thinking that something happened. Something that couldn’t be detected at the time but was gradually showing itself now. Continue reading